I remember when i was just inquiring about class schedules, subject, units, tuition fees and books in law school last year, my energy is so high so, alive, excited and enthusiastic.
Then, I did gone to law school and almost done on it's first year, save those subject with prerequisites and those that i might have flunked (since i haven't seen all my grades yet).
Now, few more days and the second semester will begin again, but the zeal and desire to finish this race has slowed down, since at this point i wanted to make a turn.
I've been contemplating hard this past days and the reason why I'm taking aback become more clearer and hence to name a few: 1) Law school demands much time in reading and I've got very few because of my work and being a hands-on Mom to my son
Destiny, not to mention the laundry time, and household chores that was tasked to me; 2) Law school is so very challenging, schedule is so tight, sometimes it conflicts with my work; 3) Law school is so exhausting and it consumes more energy, thus, my body cannot cope up with the stress it brought me and i felt so tired that at the end of the say i could almost drop myself to bed and just sleep; 4) Law school is academically high, you must be well-versed with the laws, political system and legal procedures and jurisprudence, so you may be able to grasp the subject matter. A good background in law and legal system pays much, and considering my pre-law courses is in Medical field i have less knowledge in this area, and to get equally oriented i have to go back to the basic, and it will require again more time; and 5) some other personal reasons that i hope i can control.
In sum, I cannot cope with the demands of time that this studies requires and the challenge to make it is getting unclear in my vision. It's not because I can't but because there's more things that needs my time and maybe lawyering is not really for me or there could be something else that much suits for me. I remember that quote i read in my FB wall--"If God's says No! It means a redirection to something better which suits for me.
Just the same, after this time, my life will never be the same again. :)